Incomplete gestalt

From the outside, autistic people get described as intolerant of ambiguity or uncertainty.

From the inside it feels like not being able to relax until I understand

It feels like having 99 pennies, like needing one more before I can finally exchange them for a single, lightweight dollar bill.

Ambiguity is more pennies than fit in my hands, the tension of too much and not yet.

Uncertainty is incomplete gestalt, and waiting feels awful. Any moment now I will drop all the pennies on the floor.

Terror in the back seat

We are living through a rapid phase of transition, a “change of era,” in which — while some are vying for the future of new technologies and others dedicate themselves to reflecting on the matter — most people are watching and waiting, observing from afar and merely hoping for the best. Leo

The pursuit of hose bibbs

Here in Bellingham, hose bibbs are a dividing line between renters and homeowners. Six years ago, single for the first time in two decades, I rented a duplex, planted a container garden—and discovered the locked hose bibb on the side of the building. With the relentless hope of a

Tending curiosity

Some of us are curiosity outliers. We chase down mystery, taking wild delight in knowing that every discovery contains more to be discovered. We crave relationships where intimate curiosity is reciprocal. We love others by knowing them, and want to be known with the same warm valuing. This is who

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Terror in the back seat

The pursuit of hose bibbs

Tending curiosity